Just a few thoughts that I gathered along the past few weeks that I didn't manage to pen them down.
About Change
We always initiate Change for a better. Change of lifestyle, change of habit, change of sleeping pattern, change of new gadgets ... We always Restructure for the better. Restructure of administrative system, restructure of human resources in a company, restructure of departments ... The question is, will change and restructure always result in something better? Recently the cell groups in my university decided to birth forth a new cell group after much prayers. Different ones were approached and taken to form the new group. Some were reluctant at first but they acknowledged the importance and purpose so they availed themselves. At the same time, some leaders or key players of each group left for respective reasons. As the leadership team shrunk, new coordinators were given the batons to take charge and lead. The split was meant for radical multiplication, but many groups have since then, growing smaller and smaller. Culture within the group (the one that I attend) has gradually changed, it is different right now. New visitors came but most of them did not stay long. Some didn't want to commit, on and off. Some came to know Christ but sad to say, haven't been seeing some for a season of time. I wished they would have stayed, perhaps there are issues to deal with or perhaps, the follow-up system ought to be polished. I once thought, didn't it seem to be better and stronger before and not after the split? After all, I believe in the God-given authority within the leadership team. The season has not been performing well, the split caused some to lose heart, but it's all for a good cause. I will just walk along and witness. I do what I can and to serve, though I don't have a say to change or impart something right now, I pray I can ignite something great to boost the gloom through the student movement next year on campus. That's my greatest resolution.
About Influence
Everyone has his/her own influence, in his/her unique way. Some are good at motivating and encouraging people, some's presence within a group setting can stir a big woo-wow, some are just natural born leaders where people will just willingly follow ... It has been a long season, if it is negative I will say a season of frustration and asking God WHY. But I am taking it positively, I might be restrained, refrained, kept in the shell but thus far I have opted to use the space and time I have to meet and greet as many people as I can, trying my best to be a living testimony. I slip into many groups with the intention to know a wide array of people and to find the little hole which I can bless, impart, encourage, and ultimately to point them closer and closer to Christ the chief cornerstone. My prayer is that they do not need to remember me or what I have done, but Christ. I am bold enough to say I love every group, I love my neighbour, I just want to extend what I can do and offer to beyond my house. I hope people understand that. After all, I want to be a Godly influence. I was told I might not be given the position, but I can disciple people as I go. Recognition doesn't matter.
About Lukewarm
Sometime I just couldn't figure out how people can choose to snuggle underneath their warm blanket, stay in their comfort zone and be pathetic. What does it mean to Deny oneself, Take up the Cross and Follow Christ? How much have we endured? Just a smooth ever sailing life? NO WAY! The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Only if all can contribute and strive for the Kingdom, I can't imagine the magnitude of power we can generate as Christ Ambassadors. So, don't just taste the grace and do nothing. Buckle up and do something! If not, be reminded that God can easily deny us when we reach the heaven's door.
